Do You Have To A Virgin To Be A Nun?

[sensethevisions]

[[OOC: Any spelling or grammar errors are due to the very large bottle of tequila that Phoebe is drowning her sorrows in while writing.]]

No seriously, I'm thinking of becoming a nun. Convent here I come. `Cuz, you know, it's gotta be much more simple to figure out what's going on in a convent than it is here. I'm not kidding.

Let's see, in the last 24-48 hours, my world has been turned upside down on more than one occasion.

-- Told more than once, by more than one person that I am in danger.
-- Got someone that I care about deeply kicked out of his home because he was trying to help protect me.
-- Got into a fight with an old friend after calling her up to get a special package from her for someone. Paid for it just fine. Got into fight because I wasn't interested in anything else she had to offer.
-- Went to an all girls party because Maia asked me to be there. While there, I watched Evelyn and Fred get very friendly, discovered something about myself I didn't know, and found out I had a long lost sister.
-- Stayed up all night
-- Went to Journalism class, saw the Boss in a clown outfit (I don't think my retnas will ever be the same), apologized to Jayne for vanishing last night, assured him that I had found what I promised I would find.
-- Went to Geology, aced the quiz
-- Went to Study Hall ... found myself on the receiving end of a atomic attack of words and screaming from Maia because I was talking to Belthazor. We were talking! It's not like we were having hot monkey sex on the tables for crying out loud! He thought I looked rough and he was asking me if I was okay. Maia called me a bitch and a liar and then Paige (my new sister) kept asking me what I had told him! All I had the chance to say was that I had had a rough night and that's when Maia started screaming at me. Then...then I started crying in front of everyone. I said sorry to Belthazor and just ran away to the dorm.
-- Belthazor came to check on me to make sure I was okay. I cried some more and then asked him to go talk to Piper and let her know I was okay. I think he stayed with me until I fell asleep.
-- Came down from my room after I woke up, only to find that Jayne thinks I ditched him.

*headdesk*

So see, a convent. A convent would be easier.

I wonder if Professor Jerusalem would be willing to write me an excuse from the rest of my classes today? I just don't think I could handle them today. I have so much I need to work through. That, and I just could not handle another day of someone I care about tearing into me for doing the wrong thing, nor having my new sister grill me or walk out on me again.

I hope Belthazor found Piper and was able to reassure her that I'd be alright. I don't want her to be worried about me. She has got to be just as confused and betrayed about us having another sister and Grams keeping it from us.

How could Grams do that? How could she not tell us that we had another sister out there somewhere?

Comments

[notstakedyet.livejournal.com]

[ooc: Do You Have To A Virgin To Be A Nun?

In his best Groucho Marx voice "No, but it helps." ;) ]

[sensethevisions]

[[OOC: So where can I go then if not to a convent?]]

[notstakedyet.livejournal.com]

[ooc: Oh you could still go to a convent. In fact Angelus was obsessive religious enough to make a note of the 20 closest around school. He's very spiritual that way.]

[demonbelthazor]

[OOC: Field trip?]

[notstakedyet.livejournal.com]

[OOC: BFF!]

[sensethevisions]

[[OOC: Oh she's depressed enough to actually consider it. She was humiliated in front of Belthazor and Jayne's not talking to her. Emo-Witch is considering doing drastic things. She may actually ignore Buffy and Maia's warnings and seek out Angelus for advice.]]

[notstakedyet.livejournal.com]

[ooc: Well he did just get that job as a counselor... ;) ]

[mycanonhatesme]

That sounds like an absolutely horrible day. I'm so sorry, Phoebe.

[sensethevisions]

Thanks Chloe. It's been hell. I'm actually considering just hiding out in my room for a few days.

[demonbelthazor]

Before classes that morning, Belthazor went to the East Attic to check on Phoebe and to let her know he'd shagged talked to her sister. Somewhat hesitantly, he knocked on the door.

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe moves to the door.

"Who is it?"

[demonbelthazor]

"It's Belthazor. I, uh, wanted to see if you were okay after yesterday."

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe opens the door a crack. She looks awful.

"Hey. I'm better. I wanted to say thank you."

[demonbelthazor]

"You're welcome," he said, peering through the crack at her. Her hair was a mess and there were bags under her eyes, but for some reason he didn't seem to see it. "I, um, talked to Piper. She's pretty upset, too, but she's glad you're okay."

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe smiled faintly at him, running a hand through her hair. She was glad to see him, even though she knew she looked like hell.

"Is she okay?"

[demonbelthazor]

He nodded. "Yeah. She's a little freaked out by finding out about this long lost sister and all that, and she's mad at your grandmother for not telling you guys about everything, and she's not too happy with Maia for screaming at you and trying to manipulate you all. It was a rough day for her. And you, too."

He'd been hiding something behind his back, which he now revealed and offered to her -- a single stem of a stargazer lily with three large blooms. "Here," he said. "For you. Not much but I hope it makes you feel a little better."

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe smiles. "It doesn't surprise me that she's pissed about that. She gets protective of me, like I do of her."

When Phoebe sees the flower, her smile brightens. "Belthazor...how did you know? It's my favorite flower."

[demonbelthazor]

He paused for a moment, thinking. It had just seemed right, that's why he had chosen it. "Lucky guess," he finally said with a grin. "And, you know, 'Phoebe' means bright and shining one, like a star, so, uh, stargazer." Nice that Raynor's stupid dead language lessons had paid off.

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe hugs him and kisses his cheek.

"Thank you...and thank you for caring..."

[demonbelthazor]

He shifted a little uncomfortably. "About, um, what I said last night...can we keep that between us? Just for now? It's just that my foster dad is going to be pissed because he doesn't want me dating or anything. He's all homework, homework, homework, but...."

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe nods, confusion in her eyes.

"Sure, not a problem."

[demonbelthazor]

He hated the look he saw in her eyes. Wrong thing to say, but until he figured out how to deal with this situation, he couldn't have her talking to Piper about them or...well, ugly didn't begin to describe it. "I'm sorry," he said softly. "I shouldn't have asked you that. I just don't want to get in trouble and...I'm worried that that Maia chick will come after you since she seems to have it out for me. I don't want her hurting you or Piper anymore."

Sometime in the afternoon

[the4thsister.livejournal.com]

*Paige knocks on the door, hoping Phoebe is ok and will her explain why she went to Maia*

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[demonbelthazor]

[OOC: Conga line of visitors! ;)]

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[the4thsister.livejournal.com]

(ooc Paige will be along to apologise to you also)

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[demonbelthazor]

[ :D ]

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[sensethevisions]

"Who is it?"

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[the4thsister.livejournal.com]

*Paige takes a deep breath* I-it's Paige, I wanted to check you were ok and explain why I went after Maia

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe opened the door and held it open for her.

"Come on in, Paige."

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[the4thsister.livejournal.com]

*Paige walks in looking worried* Are you ok Phoebe? I was worried about you, but you know what Maia's like don't you she could have done anything!

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe shakes her head.

"I'm not mad at you, Paige. I'm glad you went with her to keep an eye on her. I was just...I kind of wanted you to at least acknowledge that you realized I was upset and hurt."

She looks at Paige, her eyes filling with tears. "I didn't tell him anything, Paige. I was very careful. I was going to tell him about finding you, but then..."

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[the4thsister.livejournal.com]

*Paige smiles sympathicly* It's ok. I'm going to apologise to him, I mean I'm not sure about what Maia says, but if you trust him that's enough for me

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe smiles faintly.

"I know Maia has seen things...I saw them the other night. But when no one was there for me last night, he was. He kept me from doing anything stupid."

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[the4thsister.livejournal.com]

*Paige smiles* I understand, I would have come to find you, but I thought you'd probably want to be alone. Is Cole ok?

Re: Sometime in the afternoon

[sensethevisions]

Phoebe shrugs.

"He's angry, very angry. I guess seeing me in that kind of state upset him. That's got to mean that he cares." Phoebe sighs. "I saw what Maia saw and it scares me, Paige."

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[the4thsister.livejournal.com]

*Paige starts to look worried* It scares her too, I don't know what to think Phoebe. D-do you think Cole will forgive me for yesterday? I was just so worried about Maia, I wasn't really thinking clearly

[chasingangela]

(((Phoebe)))

I'm so sorry. Should I tell Jerusalem you aren't feeling well today? It sounds like a truly terrible couple of days -- and I thought I was having a bad week.

[marieann-d.livejournal.com]

Sorry I wasn't here for you. Kitty and I were outside, and didn't want to unlock the dorr in case...you know, you wanted to be alone. I'm sorry.

And I'm going to see if I can convince Sheldon to let Jayne move back in. Who knows if that'll actually work?

[jerusalem-s.livejournal.com]

((OOC: Spider: I am NOT losing another goddamn assistant to a CONVENT! People will start to TALK!))

[sensethevisions]

((OOC: Phoebe has too much fun working for Spider.))

[jerusalem-s.livejournal.com]

((OOC: We must talk about a field trip. When I'm back to two interns, I'm sending one of you three exploring in the library for something and then we will field-trip.))