When Phoebe returned to the Arms after her shocking afternoon at Orlin's (OMG Naked Camulus!!!), Phoebe felt like she had been trapped in a cement mixer for several days. She let herself in to her Suite and dropped her bag on the table next to her laptop. She went immediately into the shower and stayed in there until the water ran cold. It had been a very long and draining week. So much had happened, and so much was still hanging over her head.
Cole wasn't trying to kill her, nor had he really wanted to, but they weren't together, either. He couldn't accept her contract with Crowley, and she refused to accept his promise to Angelus. She meant it when she had told him that she couldn't put her own heart above the lives and safety of so many others. It didn't matter that a lot of people didn't believe she felt that way, but her sisters, Kiki and Lana did. They still believed in her and they still were speaking to her. She hadn't spoken to Angela in awhile... To be honest she had been kind of avoiding her good friend. she wasn't brave enough to face what she was positive would be rejection from that quarter. She also hadn't spoken to Maia lately, but that was because she knew Maia was hurting over the double loss of Buffy and Chiana.
Why was love so complicated?
She loved Cole, and she probably would never stop. However, she refused to take second place to a promise to that killer. She wouldn't support him in his quest to cause the deaths of so many people -- including people that she cared about.
Phoebe stepped out of the shower and wrapped a long towel around herself. She moved into her bedroom and crawled up into her bed. Crowley's door was just too far away. She could talk to him after her nap.
( Red, Red Is The Colour Of Blood )
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Cole wasn't trying to kill her, nor had he really wanted to, but they weren't together, either. He couldn't accept her contract with Crowley, and she refused to accept his promise to Angelus. She meant it when she had told him that she couldn't put her own heart above the lives and safety of so many others. It didn't matter that a lot of people didn't believe she felt that way, but her sisters, Kiki and Lana did. They still believed in her and they still were speaking to her. She hadn't spoken to Angela in awhile... To be honest she had been kind of avoiding her good friend. she wasn't brave enough to face what she was positive would be rejection from that quarter. She also hadn't spoken to Maia lately, but that was because she knew Maia was hurting over the double loss of Buffy and Chiana.
Why was love so complicated?
She loved Cole, and she probably would never stop. However, she refused to take second place to a promise to that killer. She wouldn't support him in his quest to cause the deaths of so many people -- including people that she cared about.
Phoebe stepped out of the shower and wrapped a long towel around herself. She moved into her bedroom and crawled up into her bed. Crowley's door was just too far away. She could talk to him after her nap.
( Red, Red Is The Colour Of Blood )
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demonbelthazor and then crawley_demon]]
